Confessions

I have a confession to make--I have been self-centered for way too long and it has finally caught up with me. Tonight my mom went into the emergency room due to her hand receiving 2nd degree burns and my best friend is on her way because she has been so sick it is affecting her health.

With my mom there is nothing much that I could have done differently, it happened and I am 13 hours away from home. I couldn't drive to be by her side and take care of her, I had to sit back and wait. Granted I did not find out about this until 5 hours after the fact, but now I wait by the phone for healing. Nothing more I could do.

On the second one let me give you some background. This New Year I resolved to do a better job of caring for myself on a spiritual level, so I read the Bible and study it. I have fallen it love with the words and messages of hope and redemption, but more importantly it has led me to intimacy with my King and my God. That is GREAT! A+ given to Staci in the Spiritual aspect of her life, but where is my ministry? My friend has been sick for the past 3 days, so sick she hasn't been able to keep a thing down and now she is on her way to the hospital where she will receive her nutrition through an IV. Where was I? How come I found out too late? I believe it is because I was focused too much on my health and forgot the real reason why we serve Jesus--people. I should have called her. I should have known before now, but I had my nose in the crease of my Bible. I never looked up to see the hurting in the world around me.

I think sometimes, we as the church get so caught up in our spiritual highs and disciplines that we forget why we are learning the foundational truths--people. Jesus says the greatest command is to love your God with all your mind, soul, and strength and love your neighbor as yourself. I think that gives us a pretty good idea on how to live. I love God so much that I want others to feel his love through me by meeting their tangible needs. Just like in classrooms, there is a test. I can read all of the textbook that I want and it will help me grasp the concept, but if I do not prove myself by being able to fully comprehend and explain it on a test then I do not pass. Just like the gospel, we can read and we can know it, but it is not until we prove ourselves that we truly pass. So let's get out of the Bible and into the world and live for the one that makes life worth living.